Tuesday, March 31, 2009

Figure.

This is not going to be my usual, crappy post. Really.
Something bizarre happened that caught hold of my day today. An eye opener I must say. Had a dream or rather a vision. How sure was I that it is not my usual subconscious dream? Well, this afternoon my dream wasn't the usual falling off the stairs , jumping off the car or people chasing after me in some building kind of dream. Also, who dreams on the usual humid afternoon nap?
Everyone was lining up, separating themselves in a few columns like an assembly. The funny thing was, they were my classmates and most of them were church members, of all ages. The hall was wide and cozy. I didn't know what we were waiting for. We waited, and waited for quite some time. I felt restless standing while the others were just standing just so still. I identified almost a number of them. I remember exactly who they are. I got so restless and tired of waiting so I went to the toilet, loitered here and there, then finally decided to come out.
No one was left standing still anymore. Everyone was all over the place. At the corner of the hall, there was this black, shiny grand piano sitting in a parallel position to the side walls. I noticed the side walls and the ceiling were so white. Then, I saw Sioe Fei sitting behind the piano and showed her skills on the piano. Beside her there was this man who was somehow, seemed to be coaching her. He looked experienced, well dressed, wore a coat, brown hair, properly placed and had a perfect body gesture. Sioe Fei finished her music piece, looked satisfied, had a little talk with that man and then smiled at me. She left after that. The man stood up. He noticed me staring at him and gave a warm smile. He seemed to glow and he really had a figure of an angel. I don't know, it's unexplainable.
I felt even more restless and hesitated on whether I should show him some piano pieces to see if I need improvements and new ideas. Somehow, I knew he was someone talented and experienced. I stood still, a distance from him. I didn't move a step. It was like there's a glue below my feet. The man then gave me that encouraging look and made a hand gesture, indicating that I should sit behind that piano and show him how I play. I felt comfort. Peaceful.
My throat hurt so badly. So I woke up, leaving that dream behind. So potong. Should have drink water before I sleep right? Ish.
Well, what I'm trying to point out is, when I put my thoughts into that dream, I realise that there is a message behind it. It's like there's someone reaching out for you while you are glued to where you are standing. Things were pretty blur this past few weeks because I didn't know where exactly my pathway is. I was so caught up with classes and homeworks. I didn't know which direction is going to do me good. It's like you feel that there is too much to handle that you might just wanna give up. So I prayed that I would have a clearer picture of what God wants me to fulfill in serving Him. Just got a chance to play the piano for youth and at first I wasn't sure whether it was suitable for me. It's something new and I never thought I would serve in this manner. When I relate this to what I dreamt about today, isn't it obvious that my prayers are answered? Isn't it obvious that whatever you desire to pursue, as long as it is right and sincere, He is there, encouraging, giving new ideas and inspire you?
Today, I felt like sharing this because I think that there is always, always hope. God can answer your prayers in many forms and ways, so don't you ever give up on Him because He had never give up on you just yet.
If you just read this long post for real, hope it meant something to you. Here's my longest post ever! Cheers.

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